wildflower

This is my story; the story of how I lost myself in my marriage, cheated on my husband and learned to love myself again. My story is full of love, grief, passion, confusion, hate, depression, fear, loneliness, hope and probably every other emotion under the sun. May someone stumble upon this, learn from my mistakes and find hope.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Trip.

It is so easy for me to slip back. It's happening. Is it weird that I crave those feelings of the past? I want to see bones again. I want to be almost invisible. What a constant stupid struggle. But I am letting it unveil itself once again. Maybe this is who I am just supposed to be. Jesus. You are greater than any situation. I keep telling myself that to convince myself. Maybe I'm the only one. I do it to myself. I thrive on conquering this feeling. It's not anyone's fault but my own. They are getting bigger. Looser. My mind is becoming tainted once again. Infection.

Feeling empty is addictive.

Jesus saves.

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