Tea.

Oh today. You were wonderful.

I was a bum and slept until noon. Ha ha! How lame. But it was quite wonderful. Super wonderful actually.

So last night I talked with Haeli for about two and a half hours. Kind of crazy but good. Still thinking about it all...trying to think it all through and really seek the Lord. I just pray she finds Jesus in a new way some day and soon. No reason to get too into that story. I don't necessarily know what to say anyway.

I'm listening to Tracy Chapman right now..it's been quite sometime since I've listened to her. She's quite delightful.

My brother won't stop dribbling his basketball. It is so annoying. Gah! But whatever. I am sure he finds my singing all of the time annoying.

Today was a lovely day. I went on a super long run...made a few pit stops on the way. Stopped at River to the Rising to talk with Karisse. I just love her. She is such an encouragement to me :) Then ran over to the Lopez's and hung out with China, Kaleb and Ezzie for a bit. I am so grateful for them. So glad to call them my family. Tomorrow Ezzie turns the big uno. I can't believe it. Man, things have changed A LOT in a year. Weird to think about. I am glad things have changed though. I went and had coffee with Hannah today...it was definitely needed. I just feel like I can tell that girl anything. We went to a new coffee shop in town, got some goodness and then walked around town..down to the river and what not. It was so beautiful today!!! :) She knows how to calm me down and I don't know how. I tend to overthink ALL of the time. She brings me back to reality..if that makes sense. I love her so much. I don't think she realizes how special she is to me.

Ian and I had a really good conversation last night. It was exactly what I needed to hear. I love how God works that way. He truly is incredible. I am so glad that the Lord is our focus. It only draws me closer to the Lord and Ian. I love it. I miss him when I don't see him for a day. Ha. Is that lame? Speaking of Ian..he just sent me a text message :) I just really really want God to be glorified through him or and I..whether we are together or not. I'm more than okay with where we are right now. I like being significant friends. I have been done with the whole dating scene for quite sometime..it makes things complicated. Maybe we're courting? I don't know. That is old school. But it's okay with me! We are what we are I suppose. Whatever God wants for us, I want. I am not in any rush! I like this though. I like him and I. I just don't want to pressure him into anything. I don't want to distract him from the Lord. I don't want to distract him from healing that might need to take place. I don't want to distract him from his friends, family, schoolwork. I just want to be an encouragement! Sorry if that doesn't make much sense. It makes sense to me though. (I'm not really sure who I am apologizing to either..ha!) Hmm. It's all in His control. And I am so grateful :)

Today I listened to Shane & Shane all day...it was awesome. I love when I feel as though my mind set is in the right place. I love feeling as though I am holding God's hand throughout the day. Those are the best. I often wonder why I don't have them more often. My flesh gets in the way. Ugh. Stupid flesh.

I feel so calm right now. But on edge at the same time. Not on edge but just that something is bugging me. I have no idea. Maybe too much caffeine and not enough food. Possibly!

I want to be at the university library right now. That is all.

Beautiful yet fallen world, sunshine, coffee, one of my best friends, family, tea, shalom and most importantly my Lord...what a lovely day.